I am your reflection.....

I am your reflection,
Made by your passion,

Your blood also runs in my vain,
Hey dad I am your son,
I don't blame,

Why did you treated my like this,
Why did you left me to die,
Why didn't you killed me,
When I only knew how to cry,

Yo dad I am your reflection,
I am proud to be who I am,
Why can't you see things the way I can,
I still love you but I hate you too,
You forget me,

Like I was a bad dream for you,
Why I was to born this way,
I have a father, But I haven't seen him,
For years, months and days,
Hey god I am appealing to you,
Please tell me,

Dose my father knows I am alive,
I am shower he doesn't even know,
At what stage I am,

Just let him know,
I have a beard now dad,
I cry for you every day now dad,
Just please tell him,

I am standing on the gate for you dad,
Waiting to see you once again dad,
Because from this day forward it harts me to say,
I am your reflection,
There is nothing that I can do about that,
I am cursed with your name,
And I blame you for that

Broken Heartless Soul

This heart is fake

As Ive been told;

No loving hearts

Can make it whole,

No dam lights

above can treasure it Now;

For now I…….

Live in forever sorrow,

Of they dying world

I left behind, with no thought at all.

You loved whats not ment to love

As though u do what u want anyways;

For this heart is now ripped

Right out;

i feel your fake as i was

Know i suffer more inside me

now one can jugde me

this face so cold

i feel i am suffering what love has

to offer thy heart thats decaying.

But yet u punish me anyways

to breath is hard enough

I feel sick with dout

know you feel what i felt

but not good enough.

to bleed is a sign of pureaty

not nowing were it takes me.

thses stupide friends

cant emagin how i feel

so for all of u just shut your mouth,

firends are better of dead

as my head begins to hurt

i youth this pain of self hurt.

until i rise again i will be silent in shame.

These tears Besides Me

i lay here silent, in a puddle full of tears

caused by my regrets, by my mistakes and by my fears

i can’t believe its over, i can’t believe its doneyou said i was your lover, you said i was the one

and now we both feel hurt, not one knows how to fix us

and these tears they lay besides me, i wonder if you miss us?

my feelings they surround me, they tell me what to do

but i wish that you were with me, i wish u wished that too

if i could write you a poem and you’d say you’d take me back

i still couldn’t find the words, but its not words i lack

the lies they killed my trust when you fled into his arms

he’s not even like me, yet you fell for his silly charms

i know i said some bad things and what you did was death

but i forgave you for our love, wont you forgive me Steph?

you tell me your confused, ‘tween me and your old love

you say you don’t have those feelings, did you really switch them off?

inside i know you love me and i know that you’ll return

but you left me with your cuts, now i have scars that burn

my head tells me to leave you, you’re nothing but deceipt

but without you i can’t function, without you i can’t breathe

my friends they say i’m crazy, move on and let it go

but i am crazy for you, my friends they just don’t know

i’m waiting for that moment, when the moon and stars align

i’m wishing in this moment, i wish that you were mine

but these tears they lay beside me, not one was shed for me

these tears they lay beside me, not one will set me free

these tears they lay beside me, not one can be undone

these tears they lay beside me, they tell me you’re the one..........

Woh Nahi Tha Meri Tabiyat Ka.....

Woh Nahi Tha Meri Tabiyat Ka....

Na rawa hai sukhan shikayat ka...woh nahi tha meri tabiyat ka...

Dasht mein shehr ho gaye abaad...Ab zamana nahi hai wehshat ka...

Waqt hai aur koi Kaam nahi...Buss Maza le raha hun Fursat ka...

Main agar tazkra krun to krun...Kiss ki zulfon ka, kiss ki qaamat ka...

Mar gaye khwaab sab ki aankhon k...Her taraf hai gila haqeeqat ka...

An mujhay dhyaan he nahi aata...Apnay honay ka, apni haalat ka...

Tujh ko paa ker zyaan hua hum ko...Tu nahi tha hamari qeemat ka...

Subh se shaam tak meri duniya...Aik manzar hai us ki rukhsat ka...

Kya Btaon k zindagi kya thi...Khwaab thi, Jaagnay ki haalat ka...

Kehtay hain Intehaaye-e-ishq jisay...Ik faqat khail hai Murawwat ka...

Aa gae Darmyaan Rooh ki baat...Zikr tha Jism ki zrurat ka...

Thook ker khoon Rung mein rehna...Main hunar-mannd hun aziyyat ka...

Zindagi ki ghazal tamaam hui...Qaafiya reh gya mohabbat ka...

 By John Elia.....